So I've been going to school for a passion of mine and loving it a lot but I think the fact that all the books are going digital and the School is giving us Ipad 2's is AWESOME!
So besides that my Birthday is coming up and I'll be 31, it's strange how you can be 18 one moment and the next you're in your 30's.
Speaking of being 18, Steph and I have this strange thing going on, mainly it's my fault, I wind up blowing things out of proportion, I try not to get paranoid about that kinda thing but I've been better lately, I mean I keep having this feeling that if we argue she'll break up with me.
We've been together for 11 mo. now I believe which is crazy to me, nearly a year and I don't think I've ever had a relationship that long that I can recall and only about 3 I took seriously, not that I dated much to begin with.
I'm still looking for a job, I hate having to rely on my dad for money but I'm thankful He's been helping me out, I don't think people realize how much I don't like living at home or having to get money from my parents, People seem to have this idea that somehow I'm one of these people who wants to live with his parents the rest of his life when it's the further from the truth.
I also hear people can't take me seriously because my standing at the moment which is bogus, why is it that people seem to have this notion that if you're rich you have more clout than some guy who happens to be living on the street?
Correct me if I'm wrong But Obi Wan was a hermit wasn't he? Apart from him being completely fictional think about it, what makes my opinion any less valid than Bill Gates? Correct me if I'm wrong but Howard Hues was one of the richest men in the world in his time and the guy was completely nuts...Granted it was because of chlamydia but still the point is that people take you more seriously when you have money... Any money and you don't even have to be rich.
There's another perception people have of me, they seem to call me immature... :|
Believe it or not, I do have a serious and thought provoking side and yet people seem to look this over, I say something thought provoking and people are shocked.
Yes, I like Animation, yes I love to do voices and I can be like a kid some times but that doesn't mean I'm immature.
People have no idea how much I have to calm myself down from being hyper because people can't handle it, they can't handle my energy but even though I bring it down so others don't feel uncomfortable around me they don't know what a toll it takes on me.
If you had to hide who you are how would you feel? Accepted? Happy? Not likely at all and it's not fun either, it gets hard to maintain sometimes, I've been very reserved at school, very quiet, there's already a joker in my class so I take a back seat.
I've tried my hardest to not be so critical of things but I slip sometimes, people only want to hear what you have to say when they agree with it otherwise all hell breaks loose and people scream bloody murder for it.
God forbid you have a different opinion right?
I try to concentrate at school, sometimes I stay late...A lot and some times I get lost in my classes because they go fast, I like that the staff is there to help if you need it.
My life is falling into place and yet it's a mess at the same time, I don't know how that works, I love God very much, I know I screw up and right now I'm not exactly doing something some people like or want me to do, maybe I'm a hypocrite with it but I want people to not say anything and let me make my own mistakes.
I get enough guff and I'm working though something right now but people keep bugging me about it and I want something for me right now, I never asked for much but God brought me what I asked for even if I am going about it the wrong way, I'm still holding out hope in things, there must be a reason for it or it wouldn't have happened from my view.
I pray for my Girlfriend, I want her to encounter God but she has to do that on her own, I can't force her to believe and maybe I'm just here to plant seeds but People take up issue with me when it's me dating her and no one else; not really anyone else' business either.
I feel like this guy no one even knows, they know me, know of me and hear stories of what I am doing and yet they have no idea who I am or why I am the way I am.
I am the man from Nantucket [sort of]
That wasn't even my goal for this blog and yet as I write I am figuring out that I really am like the man from Nantucket.
I consider myself to be like David which is Ironic because it's my middle name of all things...
I am Chasing after God and even though I screw up badly sometimes God still finds favor with me, I looked out on the roof [Still am] and seeing something I'm not supposed to.
God has a weird way of using the broken and the losers who can't really do anything right, this is because it shows people God really is there and makes a world of difference, it gives us hope that if God can use people like that than imagine what He can do with people who aren't?
"Even if you’re on the right track, you’ll get run over if you just sit there."
