Are all the work done by children?! Not the whipping...

Don't be alarmed... that Phrase as off putting as it is was a quote from the show Futurama.
I love the show, it's very funny, smart and frankly the best Animated show on Tv to date if not dare I say ever!
In context the quote is funny because it puts the reality of the 3rd world in front of people's faces and in a interesting way.
I think you can do anything in comedy to get a little chuckle out of people but then they think about it, it's face to face with people.
As a matter of fact I was talking with someone on the 28th about how there are Children in other countries who pretty much live on a dump, sorting through filth and garbage for little money, not going to school because they need to help their family.
I have gone to Jamaica twice and both times we went to orphanages, that was very hard because those kids were so love deprived it made it hard not to want to take one home with you...Truly Heart breaking.
In this economy it's hard to do anything other than worry about what will happen to your own family let alone another person in your own town, state, country or even half way around the world.
We're supposed to be socially aware and it's good that people go to other countries to help where needed.
Now that I said that let me say this...

We are a broken country, it's left vs. right and we are all broke in this economy with 10% of people unemployed at the moment.
we have people loosing their homes, barely making ends meet to feed their families.
That's here and it's sad that in a country like ours we should have to see anyone wind up in that situation.
Look, I'm all for Helping our fellow man, in fact when I have money I buy someone a meal that is hard up.
If you donate to charities let me say that's great but also maybe think about finding one that can help here in the states because how can we help others when there are still problems in this country?
Yes I realize that we have programs here that help or are supposed to but often time there's so much red tape it's redonkulous!
If you know a family in need maybe you can help them out, help out in a food pantry, Shelter or things like that.
I've heard of people taking their kids on Christmas to show them how fortunate they are and show them how to give a real gift and what the season really means.
Maybe you think I'm a jerk because I'm saying we need to put our own before any other country but we need to look out for our own because no matter what your stand is we are all American first and foremost which makes us all brothers and sisters.

I usually get a lot of guff for what I'm going to say next but I'm saying it anyway because it needs to be said.
We have helped how many countries out over the years and how many help us when we need it? China bails us out but now we're working for them.
Is it any wonder our economy collapsed when all our stuff is from other countries and we don't do nearly as much exporting?!
On top of that the Banks gave out freaking loans to people who they knew can never pay it back.
There's too much to put down about why our economy is screwed up as it is but I won't go into that now.

I'll leave you with these quotes...


I have found the paradox that if I love until it hurts, then there is no hurt, but only more love. ~Mother Teresa


Act as if what you do makes a difference. It does. ~William James

Thousands of candles can be lighted from a single candle, and the life of the candle will not be shortened. Happiness never decreases by being shared. ~Buddha

Bread for myself is a material question. Bread for my neighbor is a spiritual one. ~Nicholas Berdyaev

Stop the world I want to get off!

If you have been wondering why I haven't been writing it's because I've been Preoccupied with what's been going on in my life.
I don't like where I am in life, I look around and I see what's going on with everyone else and I feel as though I should be farther along with my life.
I'll be turning 30 at the end of the month and I have nothing to show for it, my Younger brother just got married not long ago, it's like that with a lot of people I know, My brother has built a place for Himself as a manager where He's worked for 11 years.
Granted I know He wants more but at least He's got something stable to hold onto which is more than I can say for myself.
I'm unemployed like 10% of Americans but even before that I had a hard time finding or holding a job although it's nice to blame a downed economy so I don't feel like such a failure.
Living with your parents is not the most Ideal place to be even though I understand more people my age are living with parents.
Well the unemployed thing isn't totally true I guess, I mean I work as a media Manager for a friend of mine but my pay is based on a project we're doing and that's on hold for now so I won't have income until the project is done.
I feel bad because all I can do is Help out, I don't have any money to give my parents and most often I'm asking for it, mainly for eating if I do go out which lately hasn't been much.
I've cut down on the places I go so it's a bit easier but it's still hard on everyone across the board.
Sometimes I just want to pick up and go somewhere but then I think about it and have no clue where I would go.
I have friends in different places but then I would want to move somewhere warm but I don't know people in warm places...
What sucks the most is the fact I have no dating life, I know I need a job before I can date because I'm responsible like that but even if I did find someone to go out with it's not very Ideal that they would want to go back to dear ol' mom and dad's place.
Not that I don't love my parents but let's face it, I'm not a teenager anymore even though I didn't really date in my teen years either but that's another story all together.
I feel even more torn by the fact that I kind of want to go back to school but I have seen too many bad things with going back to school to doubt if it's even worth it to go.
I've seen people, get student loans and then head for 4 years of college or trade school, they get done only to find that either...

1. They have to go back to the same crap work they were trying to get away from.
2. They have nothing to come back to only to have to keep paying back student loans that they will never be able to pay back.

Right now it seems like I would have nothing to loose, I mean after all I'm already unemployed right?
Well see the thing is that I went for 2 years to a trade school and came back to nothing and I don't want to waste my time to come back to nothing again.

Another problem is that I have too many things I want to do if I did go back to school.

I want to be a better writer.
I want to go into art.
I want to go into animation.
I want to go into Film.
I want to go into Audio recording.

all these things would coincide with one another but would take years upon years to do, Right now I'm 30, even if I did do only 2 years each and passed, did well, I would be 40 by the time I got everything done and with no real promise of ever getting a Job.

My problem is that I am so scattered right now, I'm trying to write my novel and get it done but I'm so stressed out because I need money now and I keep getting side tracked and it's driving me nuts.

I know God has everything under control but I feel like I don't know what I should be doing right now, I want to pay my parents for staying here but it's so freaking hard to find something I won't fail at.
that's another story though...

People my age already have careers, wifes, houses and children of their own by now, all set and it drives me nuts that people younger than I am already are farther along in life than I am.

Sometimes I wonder if it's even worth getting out of bed anymore.

I'll leave you with this Quote...

"No amount of sizzle will make a bad steak good." - Anonymous
“School's a weird thing. I'm not sure it works.” - Johnny Depp

Happy Birthday America!!

Well not really, I mean the 4th wasn't really when we were founded but it is when the day was picked.
It's amazing how fast time goes by and it's another year of fire works but fireworks weren't really a big deal for me.
Yes they're pretty and I saw a big mess of them at warner park on the 3rd for Rhythm and booms, if you're not familiar let me enlighten you, then again you could just look it up too. lol
It's the biggest fireworks display in the mid-west no doubt, put to music, frankly it was ok but then like I said I'm not big on fireworks.
My Dog is cowering at my feet as I type because shes a scaredy Dog and she doesn't like the booms. lol
I went down and hung out with friends and that and watched fireworks but then I got lost on my way back to our seating because I had walked over to a gas station across the street to go buy water because they were freaking charging $3.00 for it!
Mama didn't raise no fool so I bought mine a $1.00 earlier in the day but then when I went back to buy more they closed early and that's when I lost my group, had to call a friend to find them again.
After words I sat in traffic for an hour trying to get home... fun. o.0
So today I went to church, after which I came home and took a nice nap, it's weird to hear yourself say that when you get older.
I woke up refreshed and headed to another 4th of July party but left before the Fireworks because it looked like it was going to storm.
This Holiday weekend was good, good food and friends... I hope all of yours went well also.
I suppose this is the point I could pop in with something about God and our forefathers but I've done that in the past and I'm kinda tired so I'll just leave it at have a happy fourth everyone. :)