Out of nowhere I got Hit in the face by cupid's Boxing glove!

So I'm standing there and out of nowhere I got sucker punched!!!!
It's strange because I've wanted a relationship and frankly it came as a surprise that someone so much younger than I am has connected with me more than anyone else I've known.
We talked and video chatted and She amazes me in every way!
I miss her right now and I talked to her not but a few hours ago, We have a lot in common and she likes me for who I am even in all my dorkiness!!!
I'm breaking all my rules which is weird for me to do in the least, She's young which normally I keep the girls I date to 25 and older...
She's not a believer which I'm not going to try and convert Her in any way because it's a personal decision She has to make on Her own although it would be even better if she did make that choice on Her own.
I never expected this at all but I find it sad and strange that all the Christian women I asked out all shot me down or plain just don't like me and yet a Non Christian girl accepts me for who I am and absolutely adores me!
That is totally messed up!
I've been asked why I didn't find someone close who's a Christian and my reply is this...
"I tried, I really did and all I got was shot down every single time."
I know this is bad in some ways but I'm so sick of being the nice 'well behaved' guy who gets nowhere with anyone and the guy women don't want to be with so I'm going to stop, relax and have fun for once in my life.
People I know won't like it but I'm an adult and it's not for lack of trying to find a nice Christian girl, I've had more of a connection with Steph than anyone else I've ever met!!!
This feels so right and She makes me so happy that I just want to be around Her all the time, it's very hard to not be around Her, I've never felt like I've wanted to be with anyone this badly before.
The strangest part of this all is how quickly it happened and the fact of how much I like Her in such a short time. :D

I know this is the spot I normally put a quote for you but I'm smiling too much... Maybe I'll add one later. lol :D

While sitting in a bookstore you'll find an elephant in the corner.

I don't get out that often in part due to the fact that I have to ration my gas of my car and the other part due to that it's far too hot and muggy lately.
Now the house I'm at doesn't have air conditioning like the old place did, I have a fan but it's hard to put it at a good decent distance from myself so it cools me and doesn't dry my eyes out.
I find it hard to do any writing of my novel, I tend to get distracted, I don't much like tv either which makes it that much stranger if I'm watching some rerun of any show.
It's either that or it's getting caught up on the web, I can zip through my accounts not problem, the main problem is that a bedroom is a dangerous place to write a novel because my bed is there calling me to dream land.
I've been so stinking tired, even when I drink an energy drink I seem to be able to drift off easy enough but then it doesn't help that I've been staying up till all hours lately.
I have an opportunity to have a girlfriend and that would be a wonderful but it would be long distance and I know more than anyone how hard that is.
On one hand it would afford me not to have to spend money on "dates" like movie and dinner, that would be convenient because I don't have the money at the moment for things like that.
Then on the other hand I don't think it would be fair to Her because I couldn't come visit her either.
It's not like she's too far away, She's only a few hours away so I'm torn with the whole thing and right now it's just being friends while I figure out if I want to pursue anything.
Generally I would jump on the opportunity to have a girlfriend just because it's been over 5 years since I've had a relationship.
This doesn't mean I'm desperate by any means because I'm not one of those people who feel they're worth something only when they're with someone.
I've been contemplating if women even like me at all because any time I ask anyone out I get shot down, it's much like a game of duck hunt.
What those women don't realize is that when I'm in a relationship I put myself in it, I'm loyal, romantic and I don't mind talking and opening up or going to see "chick flicks".
Women always whine about wanting a guy like me and yet they pass me over so quickly that I find it a bit Ironically funny.
"Why are all the best guys either taken or gay?" This is something else I hear a lot too but that is a false assumption due to the fact that they pass us up and they won't look twice at us unless we have a woman on our arm and taken.
I swear women don't notice unless that happens because once they find out someone is taken they start to ponder what qualities that man has to get another woman to be with Him.
It's enough to make me want to buy a wedding ring and see the women start being attracted, you might say that's wrong to do but I ask you, what's worse? Me putting on a fake wedding ring or the the women that ignore me unless I have a ring on?
It all doesn't matter which is worse because their both wrong and it's all comparative anyways, I don't think anything is better or worse than anything else, if we were to treat everything at the same horror then I think we could stop Judging one another.
Is molestation worse than murder or bestiality? I say no they're all wrong and all despicable so it shouldn't matter.
Now I got off on a rant there for a second but going back to what I was saying, I want to make it clear that I DON'T wear a fake ring or anything of the sort, just tempted to try it as a test.
Right now my life is less than Ideal to say the least but I realize that it could be far worse in a lot of other ways.
I just don't like feeling like a burden like I do, there's not really any Jobs available and the risk of starting a new business is dangerous in this economy with everything that's going on.
It's a rock and a hard place thing, do I go to school only to come back with no jobs available like I've seen so many times or do I go to a crappy job that will get me nowhere, start a business only to fail or not try at all and never see if I would succeed.
These are frustrations that I go through not to mention that I want to be a great writer like my ancestor Charles Dickens...
It's in my blood and I can't deny it but my creative side often outweighs my ability to push on to finish my writings, Sometimes I feel like if I had someone to challenge and push me I would have the drive to do anything.
It goes with the same way with anything I do in life though which makes it quite the paradox, I know it doesn't work this way but this is how it plays out in my head....

I'm not doing anything with my life because I don't have anyone to drive me wanting to do anything, if I had someone I would be more inclined to want to do more, I can't have someone because I'm not doing anything with my life and no one wants someone who isn't getting things done.

I find myself not being able to do either because one relies on the other, I don't make money because I don't have anyone for me to drive to earn it on and I can't have someone unless I have money to earn to go out...

I know what I need to do, I know I need to find the drive to earn money so I can find someone to spend it on but I can't quite find a reason to push myself to that extent because of reasons I have said in other entries with jobs and college.

Half the Jobs I can't do because it takes 4 year degrees which leaves menial jobs half of which I can't do which leaves sparse jobs.

I can't do food service because I can't push food out fast enough in a lunch rush and I'm not that great of a cook unless it's for myself and food service won't let you only be on register.

Retail I can't do because I worked it for 2 years and I hated how they push credit cards on the people, you don't get hours unless you have people sign up for their cards and I'm not one for forcing people into debt, I just won't do that to people.
Also I have a bad habit of being short with moron customers after a few hours and not one to hold my tongue if someone writes a check which often times gets me in trouble.
I mean honestly who writes checks in stores?? I understand writing checks for paying your bills but not for a store!

I can do office work but it's been so long since I've done that, that I'm not sure I could get a job in an office.

I can do janitorial but that just feels demeaning and lets face it, what woman would admit Her boyfriend is a janitor?

Warehouse work isn't bad but I'm a bit out of shape so it makes it hard to do what's required of me if I did.

I think about these things and it seems depressing that no matter what I do it's not going to matter much when everyone else is so far ahead in the race?

I'll leave you with these quotes...

"In a world of nonsense, everything something is, it isn't, everything it would be wouldn't, and everything it wasn't, was."

"I have never liked working. To me a job is an invasion of privacy." ~Danny McGoorty

“Whenever you're in conflict with someone, there is one factor that can make the difference between damaging your relationship and deepening it. That factor is attitude.” - William James

“I love you, and because I love you, I would sooner have you hate me for telling you the truth than adore me for telling you lies.” ~ Pietro Aretino

Three Decades and counting...

I'm up, That's kind of a given and frankly I want to Blog a little more often.
It was my Birthday on the 31st of July, I wanted to write something but it didn't happen as you could see.
It's very strange to be as old as I am and I think it throws my Mother off that I still watch cartoons, Because everyone knows adults "don't watch cartoons" despite the fact that Adults MAKE the cartoons.
Why do I have to stop watching cartoons just because I'm an adult?
They don't make them quite like they used to though, all the stuff from today has nothing on the cartoons of the past. though I might be Biased there.
Look, I watch both shows for grown ups and "Kids" Programing.
Cartoons have always been for more adults than kids, there's things that go right over kids heads and appeal to adults.
Look at Pixar. :D
Who doesn't like it when Tom Chases Jerry around with a hammer, Jerry stops and picks up a huge mallet... Tom comes to a complete halt and finds good charity from Jerry when Jerry selflessly offers to switch the huge mallet for the little ballPene hammer.
Tom gladly switches Only to be hit on the foot with the same hammer He just switched. :D
Or how about all the other animated violence of yesteryear?
Frankly there's too many stupid people out there that think that kids aren't responsible for their actions.
I never went around hitting my brother with a shovel, you know why?? because my Parents were responsible enough to teach me right from wrong so I could watch something and know that If I hit someone they can/will get seriously hurt.
I'm not saying to let kids watch violent programing or play violent games, there are ratings there for a reason... BUT on the other hand if a kid plays a violent game or watches something Don't go blaming the things.
The parents should be confident in the fact that they hopefully taught their child, right and wrong, Reality from fantasy.
Parents can't always watch their kids 24/7, so a sleep over might turn into a movie the parent might not let their kids normally watch which is why I said it's important that you've taught your kids to know differences.
Anyway walking past that mini rant.lol
I'm 30 now and that is all too freaky to say the least because last thing I know I was 17 and all of a sudden I'm 30!
I had fun though, we went to the Safe-house in Milwaukee, If you don't know about it google it because it's a lot of fun and good food too.
Right now I feel stressed and torn because I don't feel like I've done much of anything with my life and I'm not happy where I'm at and where I'm going either.
Life isn't really complex at all in my opinion, I think we as humans make Life this big huge complex thing and make it far more complex then it has to be.
That's a lot to say coming from a person who isn't sure what to do next but then I don't think we're supposed to fully know because if we all knew what was going to happen next it would effect our judgement along with our free will.
Everyone acts according to their experiences and according to what they know, the pieces of the puzzle they've fit together so far.
The problem is that some people are only as far as the blue sky pieces so they can't quite fit where the other pieces go yet.
Have you ever heard the story of the blind men and the Elephant??

It was six men of Indostan
To learning much inclined,
Who went to see the Elephant
(Though all of them were blind),
That each by observation
Might satisfy his mind.

The First approach'd the Elephant,
And happening to fall
Against his broad and sturdy side,
At once began to bawl:
"God bless me! but the Elephant
Is very like a wall!"

The Second, feeling of the tusk,
Cried, -"Ho! what have we here
So very round and smooth and sharp?
To me 'tis mighty clear
This wonder of an Elephant
Is very like a spear!"

The Third approached the animal,
And happening to take
The squirming trunk within his hands,
Thus boldly up and spake:
"I see," quoth he, "the Elephant
Is very like a snake!"

The Fourth reached out his eager hand,
And felt about the knee.
"What most this wondrous beast is like
Is mighty plain," quoth he,
"'Tis clear enough the Elephant
Is very like a tree!"

The Fifth, who chanced to touch the ear,
Said: "E'en the blindest man
Can tell what this resembles most;
Deny the fact who can,
This marvel of an Elephant
Is very like a fan!"

The Sixth no sooner had begun
About the beast to grope,
Then, seizing on the swinging tail
That fell within his scope,
"I see," quoth he, "the Elephant
Is very like a rope!"

And so these men of Indostan
Disputed loud and long,
Each in his own opinion
Exceeding stiff and strong,
Though each was partly in the right,
And all were in the wrong!

In the end we all have our journey's ahead of us and I'm only a part way there, I think the main thing is this.
Those blind men only happened to stay where they were and never moved at all so they never felt any other part of the Elephant which is why they argued so much instead of feeling the whole beast.
I don't know what's next for me or what I'm going to be doing next, all I can hope is my Novel gets finished and hope for the best from this year and the next few years.
I know I shouldn't compare myself to others but it's hard not to when everyone else seems to have careers,families,homes and kids by my age which is what's making my life both more complex and more frustrating than it really should be.

Let me leave you with these quotes...

Too many people overvalue what they are not and undervalue what they are. ~Malcolm S. Forbes

Your future depends on many things, but mostly on you. ~Frank Tyger

“You're dead if you aim only for kids. Adults are only kids grown up, anyway.” ~Walt Disney

Are all the work done by children?! Not the whipping...

Don't be alarmed... that Phrase as off putting as it is was a quote from the show Futurama.
I love the show, it's very funny, smart and frankly the best Animated show on Tv to date if not dare I say ever!
In context the quote is funny because it puts the reality of the 3rd world in front of people's faces and in a interesting way.
I think you can do anything in comedy to get a little chuckle out of people but then they think about it, it's face to face with people.
As a matter of fact I was talking with someone on the 28th about how there are Children in other countries who pretty much live on a dump, sorting through filth and garbage for little money, not going to school because they need to help their family.
I have gone to Jamaica twice and both times we went to orphanages, that was very hard because those kids were so love deprived it made it hard not to want to take one home with you...Truly Heart breaking.
In this economy it's hard to do anything other than worry about what will happen to your own family let alone another person in your own town, state, country or even half way around the world.
We're supposed to be socially aware and it's good that people go to other countries to help where needed.
Now that I said that let me say this...

We are a broken country, it's left vs. right and we are all broke in this economy with 10% of people unemployed at the moment.
we have people loosing their homes, barely making ends meet to feed their families.
That's here and it's sad that in a country like ours we should have to see anyone wind up in that situation.
Look, I'm all for Helping our fellow man, in fact when I have money I buy someone a meal that is hard up.
If you donate to charities let me say that's great but also maybe think about finding one that can help here in the states because how can we help others when there are still problems in this country?
Yes I realize that we have programs here that help or are supposed to but often time there's so much red tape it's redonkulous!
If you know a family in need maybe you can help them out, help out in a food pantry, Shelter or things like that.
I've heard of people taking their kids on Christmas to show them how fortunate they are and show them how to give a real gift and what the season really means.
Maybe you think I'm a jerk because I'm saying we need to put our own before any other country but we need to look out for our own because no matter what your stand is we are all American first and foremost which makes us all brothers and sisters.

I usually get a lot of guff for what I'm going to say next but I'm saying it anyway because it needs to be said.
We have helped how many countries out over the years and how many help us when we need it? China bails us out but now we're working for them.
Is it any wonder our economy collapsed when all our stuff is from other countries and we don't do nearly as much exporting?!
On top of that the Banks gave out freaking loans to people who they knew can never pay it back.
There's too much to put down about why our economy is screwed up as it is but I won't go into that now.

I'll leave you with these quotes...


I have found the paradox that if I love until it hurts, then there is no hurt, but only more love. ~Mother Teresa


Act as if what you do makes a difference. It does. ~William James

Thousands of candles can be lighted from a single candle, and the life of the candle will not be shortened. Happiness never decreases by being shared. ~Buddha

Bread for myself is a material question. Bread for my neighbor is a spiritual one. ~Nicholas Berdyaev

Stop the world I want to get off!

If you have been wondering why I haven't been writing it's because I've been Preoccupied with what's been going on in my life.
I don't like where I am in life, I look around and I see what's going on with everyone else and I feel as though I should be farther along with my life.
I'll be turning 30 at the end of the month and I have nothing to show for it, my Younger brother just got married not long ago, it's like that with a lot of people I know, My brother has built a place for Himself as a manager where He's worked for 11 years.
Granted I know He wants more but at least He's got something stable to hold onto which is more than I can say for myself.
I'm unemployed like 10% of Americans but even before that I had a hard time finding or holding a job although it's nice to blame a downed economy so I don't feel like such a failure.
Living with your parents is not the most Ideal place to be even though I understand more people my age are living with parents.
Well the unemployed thing isn't totally true I guess, I mean I work as a media Manager for a friend of mine but my pay is based on a project we're doing and that's on hold for now so I won't have income until the project is done.
I feel bad because all I can do is Help out, I don't have any money to give my parents and most often I'm asking for it, mainly for eating if I do go out which lately hasn't been much.
I've cut down on the places I go so it's a bit easier but it's still hard on everyone across the board.
Sometimes I just want to pick up and go somewhere but then I think about it and have no clue where I would go.
I have friends in different places but then I would want to move somewhere warm but I don't know people in warm places...
What sucks the most is the fact I have no dating life, I know I need a job before I can date because I'm responsible like that but even if I did find someone to go out with it's not very Ideal that they would want to go back to dear ol' mom and dad's place.
Not that I don't love my parents but let's face it, I'm not a teenager anymore even though I didn't really date in my teen years either but that's another story all together.
I feel even more torn by the fact that I kind of want to go back to school but I have seen too many bad things with going back to school to doubt if it's even worth it to go.
I've seen people, get student loans and then head for 4 years of college or trade school, they get done only to find that either...

1. They have to go back to the same crap work they were trying to get away from.
2. They have nothing to come back to only to have to keep paying back student loans that they will never be able to pay back.

Right now it seems like I would have nothing to loose, I mean after all I'm already unemployed right?
Well see the thing is that I went for 2 years to a trade school and came back to nothing and I don't want to waste my time to come back to nothing again.

Another problem is that I have too many things I want to do if I did go back to school.

I want to be a better writer.
I want to go into art.
I want to go into animation.
I want to go into Film.
I want to go into Audio recording.

all these things would coincide with one another but would take years upon years to do, Right now I'm 30, even if I did do only 2 years each and passed, did well, I would be 40 by the time I got everything done and with no real promise of ever getting a Job.

My problem is that I am so scattered right now, I'm trying to write my novel and get it done but I'm so stressed out because I need money now and I keep getting side tracked and it's driving me nuts.

I know God has everything under control but I feel like I don't know what I should be doing right now, I want to pay my parents for staying here but it's so freaking hard to find something I won't fail at.
that's another story though...

People my age already have careers, wifes, houses and children of their own by now, all set and it drives me nuts that people younger than I am already are farther along in life than I am.

Sometimes I wonder if it's even worth getting out of bed anymore.

I'll leave you with this Quote...

"No amount of sizzle will make a bad steak good." - Anonymous
“School's a weird thing. I'm not sure it works.” - Johnny Depp

Happy Birthday America!!

Well not really, I mean the 4th wasn't really when we were founded but it is when the day was picked.
It's amazing how fast time goes by and it's another year of fire works but fireworks weren't really a big deal for me.
Yes they're pretty and I saw a big mess of them at warner park on the 3rd for Rhythm and booms, if you're not familiar let me enlighten you, then again you could just look it up too. lol
It's the biggest fireworks display in the mid-west no doubt, put to music, frankly it was ok but then like I said I'm not big on fireworks.
My Dog is cowering at my feet as I type because shes a scaredy Dog and she doesn't like the booms. lol
I went down and hung out with friends and that and watched fireworks but then I got lost on my way back to our seating because I had walked over to a gas station across the street to go buy water because they were freaking charging $3.00 for it!
Mama didn't raise no fool so I bought mine a $1.00 earlier in the day but then when I went back to buy more they closed early and that's when I lost my group, had to call a friend to find them again.
After words I sat in traffic for an hour trying to get home... fun. o.0
So today I went to church, after which I came home and took a nice nap, it's weird to hear yourself say that when you get older.
I woke up refreshed and headed to another 4th of July party but left before the Fireworks because it looked like it was going to storm.
This Holiday weekend was good, good food and friends... I hope all of yours went well also.
I suppose this is the point I could pop in with something about God and our forefathers but I've done that in the past and I'm kinda tired so I'll just leave it at have a happy fourth everyone. :)

The hardest thing anyone could ever do.

It's already June and I've been preoccupied with relatively unimportant things but I'm hoping to change some habits I have when I move which isn't too far away.
One of those habits is speaking my mind, Now It's only my opinion but by far the hardest thing anyone can do is holding their tongue and not speaking their mind.
I've been pretty good about it and learning to not saying anything but I still have a long way to go with that and it has a way of sneaking up on me from time to time.
The worst place I have trouble in is online, this is not a medium for arguing with anyone mainly due to what I call Verbal delay.
When you talk it is mainly a reactionary thing where you can talk back and forth with fluid motion with no guessing needed on intent of How the words are both presented and tone of voice.
When I'm in a one on one conversation I can respond to something with immediacy and expand on it as needed so there is no mistake with intent.
However the same cannot be done online due to the following reasons...

1. Short space.

There are two parts to this.
A.} Often times you only get so many words to convey your statement and often times you cannot fully explain your intent so you have to compact often resulting in people thinking you're not thorough enough or misinterpreting your message leading to people thrashing your opinion.

B.} In the case of where you do get plenty of room and can fully write your full thoughts out you are forced to shorten your thoughts into the best way possible due to the fact that no one wants to read long expounding essay's.
Often times instead of reading your full thoughts people skim the words and/or subconsciously skip a word that is vital in conveying the point.
For instance... If you write "Lindsy is not a whore." people skip over the word 'not' and the words turn into "Lindsy is a whore."
I don't know why this is but it does happen very strangely and I am confident that it is subconscious and not intentional.

2.There is a delayed reaction.
Because there isn't an auditory response of physically Hearing you often times get caught with having to wait for a response from the person or if it's an open forum of any number of people waiting to type their opinions.
It takes a while to type a response to these people and so a normal conversation that would not take long can go on forever getting nowhere in the least because another thing that happens is that people who haven't seen the whole conversation tend to repeat things that have already been talked about variably starting a lot over because no one wants to go through Days weeks, months if not years of chat logs depending on how long the topic was posted and how heated it got.
Not to mention pages upon pages of logs.

Inevitably posting anything online causes a never ending up hill battle that no one wins because no one gets their point across without a huge backlash from one side or the other ultimately becoming useless in all aspects.

So even in knowing this I still have the habit of speaking my mind which logically and literally is insane because I keep hoping for a different outcome other than a never ending battle which never happens.
I've been seriously trying to stop online debate knowing that it will never go anywhere and just let it go because if I don't stop it at the start It'll be very hard to stop myself from stopping.
I've gotten much better in the real world and holding my tongue and being better at lowering my level and even letting things go, now all I have to do is just keep reminding myself not to start in the first place.
I just have to let others be wrong and have me not say anything which is really hard for me to do, when someone says something incorrect I feel a very strong urge inside pushing me to correct others.
A big part of this has to do with the Asperger's in me and I'm not using it as an excuse by any means but more of the fact that it Helps me understand myself Better and have a better understanding of what I need to correct in my own life and how to go about doing that.

People often times don't understand why I am the way I am or why I'm loud, speak my mind so flat out boldly, see things in black and white and why I sometimes get so obsessed with things.
I think my obsession more times comes out in the form of wanting to correct people with misinformation and in doing so I won't let go most times until it's corrected.

Recently an old friend of mind posted something on His Facebook page to which I was not the only one to jump in and correct Him in His mis-beliefs on a subject.
For some reason a friend of His {Not mine} proceeded to suggest that the only mission in my life was to only prove my friend wrong as if I stayed nestled by His page waiting to strike and lash out like I had nothing better to do with my life.
They also said a few other things to me which I won't get into and so in defense to correct this misinformation I Private messaged them because I wouldn't want to get into anything on a public forum since it can get very crowded quickly.
I do this with everyone and anyone who talks to me because it's only proper to at least give defense to an attack.
In doing this my friend got upset simply because I messaged His friend whom I didn't know despite the fact that their friend openly attacked me and I was at least nice enough to private message that person rather than getting into it on a public forum.
Long story short they unfriended me which is their right to do so but they did not see my right to defend myself against a threat.
I do wonder, should I just let people carry on with false information and passing it on to others or do I take the risk of correcting that despite being right and backed and vindicated by others will turn into a never ending battle?
I don't have that kind of time to waste on ignorant people and yet the drive inside me doesn't want those people to keep being ignorant either.
It's a Paradox...
I think from not on I'll be trying my darnedest to stick to verbal correction and leave online ones out.
God holds us accountable to that if we do not at least try to correct misinformation and God will hold false teachers accountable for all those who they led astray with their misinformation.
I swear in my near 30 years of life this is my greatest challenge yet of personal growth and I'm sure there are more to come.

Let no man say I wasn't fair

I keep getting behind on my blogging and it's getting a bit frustrating because I know I should do it but get caught up in other things so I know I need to spend less time on my Facebook account and more writing Here and finishing my novel.
Now onto my Title>
It's no secret how I feel about Obama, I dislike what He's doing and I'm not shy about saying my opinion either, I don't wish death on Him, I just wish He would get out of office.
Now over that I must say lately I have seen a few things here and there that caught my attention that were good.
Like the fact that He opened a new Nuclear Power plant and opted to go for our own drilling while we wait for clean energy to kick in a bit better.
Now I'm not oblivious to the British Petroleum situation and I'm not blind to what a tragedy that was and how we're going to be cleaning it up for quite some time.
Now saying that I must say that it was still a good call because we need it, I know most would question why I would say continuing to drill for oil after such a tragic thing happening is good and I can only tell you one thing.
Other countries are continuing to drill.
Do you think that we're the only one's who do off shore drilling?
We need to think about the cost of gas, Yes life is important too but think about the fact of how the economy would be boosted if gas was only $1.00 or less!
With gas prices down business owners would have to pay less for shipments and in return product prices would go down, we could go places and tourism would be up around the country.
What a positive effect low gas prices have don't they! :D
Now on the other hand besides off shore there are plenty of places that are land locked that have oil, as a matter of fact there is so deep of a reserve our grandchildren would have low gas prices through their lifetime also!
Now don't get me wrong, I'm all for taking care of the earth and being good care takers, after all if we poison our own water supply what good would that be?
I'm all for new power and energy sources but at the same time I don't think we need to fret either about the scam of "global warming".
I'm kind of in the middle between making sure we are responsible and not being so uptight that we don't progress to make life better for people.
Getting back to what I was saying before I got side tracked, I may not agree with nearly anything He's done but I must say that With at least those two things He's been bumped up from a flat out F to a D- as far as grades go.
Don't get me wrong, He's still got a long way to go before I up His grade again for a while but still I'm giving Him a fair shake on that.
Now all He has to do is support Arizona and follow their example for Illegal immigration , cut back spending which includes NOT bailing out Greece and other countries!, Repeal the Social healthcare bill and the list goes on.
Let no man say I wasn't fair in my views because this should be proof enough that I do give credit where credit is due when it's earned.

Let me leave you with these quotes...

These men ask for just the same thing, fairness, and fairness only. This, so far as in my power, they, and all others, shall have.
Abraham Lincoln

Fairness is not an attitude. It's a professional skill that must be developed and exercised. -Brit Hume

Live so that when your children think of fairness, caring, and integrity, they think of you.
H. Jackson Brown, Jr.

The National day of Prayer: Becoming an outlaw for God.

I'm going to do something different than what's on the list and I've been so busy with my other Projects that I haven't gotten to anything on my list of Topics.
I did get to thinking though, Today is the National day of Prayer and a governmental Judge said that it's "Unconstitutional" to pray.
What kind of world are we living in that it's against the law to pray where we want to in public?
It's our right to pray, despite popular belief this country was founded on Christian principals as seen in their writings, our founding Fathers meant for us to have freedom to choose a religion and to Keep the government out of the churches business in dictating what people can and can't believe or telling the people what Churches they can or can't belong to.
It was not to keep Religious Principals out of Government, It is the Ethics of the people that keep the Government in line and keep our freedoms in tact.
This was because of the Fact that there was Religious oppression coming from England and the founding Fathers were trying to escape that Oppression.
Now there are people in government who are stripping our rights to worship in our way, all we wanted was to recognize our heritage on a national level, we weren't trying to force people to pray or forcing people of other beliefs to convert.
We would like to see that happen on people's own accord but what's strangely sad is it seems that while Christian rights are being stripped other religious rights are being presented, what do you think would happen if the government said that Muslims couldn't pray?
May the 6th we move forward and we are praying anyway with or without the government's permission and there is an outcry by anti-Christian groups because we're still praying despite them not recognizing it as a national thing.
WE the people will bring this to the forefront and recognize the National day of prayer as our right.
They can't stop people from praying, The can't tell us what we can Believe, It is our rights as Americans and most of all it is our Human right.
If it is Illegal to Pray then I will be an outlaw, I am not accountable to Men...I am accountable to God.
If you are a believer please keep praying for our Government because those in office need guidance.
If you do not believe that is your right but please respect our right to pray, we're not forcing you to pray and that is not the goal of the National Day of Prayer, the goal is to gather those who do believe to pray peacefully for our nation, our leaders and most importantly the world.
Yes we can pray any time of the year but it seems so scattered that if we have one day to band together it brings us together as a Church whole, no matter what Denomination.
We are the Body of Christ and we must keep our spiritual freedoms in tact because if we don't it won't be too much longer until Prayer really will be Illegal.

Let me leave you with this quote from the movie Kingdom of Heaven>>
"A King may move a man, a father may claim a son. That man can also move himself. And only then does that man truly begin his own game. Remember that howsoever you are played, or by whom, your soul is in your keeping alone. Even though those who presume to play you be kings or men of power. When you stand before God, you cannot say "but I was told by others to do thus" or that "virtue was not convenient at the time." This will not suffice. Remember that."

Upcoming Topics

It's been a hard thing to choose a next topic to talk about so I'm going to make a short list off the top of my head and go from there.

The Differences between Killing and Murder.
The Evils of Socialism and the Deceiving of America
Abortion.
Decisions and how they affect and Shape us and our world view.
Having the Heart of David: Chasing after God.
Drinking Deeply in thought and Spirit.
The Watered down Mentality.
Changing vantage points of us and how we view the Bible.
Forming the Well.
Standing on the Precipitous.
We are Trees: Taking root in your Faith.
Faith and Logic.
Sailing in your Worship.
Judging, Rebuking and God's laws.
Letting your Dreams die.
Sound of silence:Death of noise pollution.
Getting off the bottle: Growing your teeth for the Meat of the Bible.
Gaining Wisdom.
Walking away: Starving your Ego.
Owning up: Taking responsibility for our actions.
No Regrets: Not living in guilt from the past.
Christian: Christ in us being a "little Christ"
Body of the Church: God's dwelling place.
God's investment in us.

These are just a few things I've wanted to talk about because there's a lot of Misconceptions about things or just flat out lies people have accepted in their thinking.
I don't think people truly think about these things or see them at skewed angle so they don't fully see things for what they are thereby missing a lot.

Living Fearlessly

Fear, Just about everyone is afraid of something, there's whole books dedicated to phobias and what people fear.
Fear holds even the very best of us back, you will never get anywhere or do anything if you fear what hasn't happened yet, if you fear all the bad things happening nothing good will come either.
I found out a funny little fact that I find interesting to me, a study said that more people had a fear of public speaking than death.
Interesting thing fear is, the idea is that people take something that hasn't happened yet and allowed it to control them.
How odd that something that has yet to happen could control a person's actions.
There are some like myself who really have no fear of things and get past that what if mentality,
Now off the top of my head I honestly can't think of one thing I fear, maybe because I know God is looking out for me and even if something were to happen then there must have been a reason and I won't have to worry about bills any more.{That last part is a joke but you get the jest of it.}
I watched tv once and a show was on where they showed peoples fears of things and this woman had a fear of balloons of all things.
Now as I stated, some have no fear and that can be a good or bad thing as long as you don't take either too far.
What is the difference between the two types of people?
I often wonder to myself why fear is like a tornado and it effects one person while leaving another in tact.
I have been in car accidents before and I was fine, I got back on the road and drove again, making sure I was a bit more careful next time.
However I have seen people who get into a car accident and are so mentally wounded that they can't set foot in a car, Bus or any other transport without freaking out or breaking down.
I've been bitten by dogs and yet I love dogs, others get bitten and they can't even see a picture of a dog without fretting, as if the dog will leap out of the picture to bite them.
Fear doesn't do anything but hold us back serving as a what if reminder and keeping a person in a physiological prison.
Throughout History Man has known fear does nothing for people except damage people and we can either rule our fears or we can let it dictate what we can or can't do.
There are whole groups of people who fear Germs so they don't go out and clean excessively not realizing that they are doing more damage than good.
I don't use hand sanitizer because people who use it all the time wind up with weaker immune systems because the germs get used to it and their systems can't handle things when something does come along.
I do use soap in case you were worried. :)
There have been many great quotes about fear>
Sven Goran wrote “The greatest barrier to success is the fear of failure.”
“FEAR is an acronym in the English language for "False Evidence Appearing Real""-Neale Donald Walsch
“You block your dream when you allow your fear to grow bigger than your faith.”-Mary Manin Morrissey
“Courage is not the absence of fear, but rather the judgement that something else is more important than fear.”- Ambrose Redmoon
and of course one of the most famous by Franklin D. Roosevelt “There is nothing to fear but fear itself.”
The list goes on forever including Bible quotes and there is a whole wide range of things out there to be afraid of and there are always things that will happen whether you choose to be afraid or not but I choose to let it not manipulate me.

On the other side there are people who show no fear but do so foolishly thinking that if they push it God will save them from impending doom if He still has things for them to do.
I'm not ragging on thrill seekers by any means, they have equipment or know the equipment is safe before doing things or at the least know what their doing. {Sometimes}
There must be a balance between living and using common sense with caution.
For instance there are people who practice snake handling in churches, these are deadly venomous snakes that can kill you and they think this proves their faith.
why would they think this you ask??
It's because of a scripture Mark 16:18 that says "they will pick up snakes with their hands; and when they drink deadly poison, it will not hurt them at all; they will place their hands on sick people, and they will get well.”
This has mislead many people to believe the wrong thing resulting in many deaths over the years when this scripture has been taken out of context.
The full scripture says>>
He{Meaning Jesus} said to them,Go into all the world and preach the good news to all creation. 16 Whoever believes and is baptized will be saved, but whoever does not believe will be condemned. 17 And these signs will accompany those who believe: In my name they will drive out demons; they will speak in new tongues; 18 they will pick up snakes with their hands; and when they drink deadly poison, it will not hurt them at all; they will place their hands on sick people, and they will get well.”
Seeing the full scripture shows that EVEN if we are to be poisoned or bitten by snakes we will not be affected, we aren't to tempt fate by pushing anything to prove our faith.

Having said everything I have I must say this next, some people have a fear of talking to others about God or Jesus or the Bible.
This is what the Bible has to say about fear>>
Psalm 23:4 says "Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for you are with me."
Ps. 27:1-3 says "The LORD is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? the LORD is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid? When the wicked, even mine enemies and my foes, came upon me to eat up my flesh, they stumbled and fell. Though an host should encamp against me, my heart shall not fear: though war should rise against me, in this will I be confident."
Psalm 56:11 says "In God have I put my trust: I will not be afraid what man can do unto me."
2 Timothy shows that Fear does NOT come from God and states "For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind."

God doesn't want us to fear anything because if He is for us who can be against us?
It's at this point people usually ask this question.

Q.If He doesn't want us to fear Him why is it called the fear of the lord or fear the lord your God?
A.This is a misunderstanding and merely something that takes a little bit of study to understand.
The real meaning for the fear of the Lord means to respect God enough to Obey His Commandments, I'll explain Further.

For someone who doesn't Believe, the fear of God is the fear of the judgment of God {we must all face in the end}, which means eternal separation from God-Luke 12:5 & Hebrews 10:31.
For the believer however, the fear of God is something much different. The believer's fear is reverence of God. Hebrews 12:28-29 says “Therefore, since we are receiving a kingdom that cannot be shaken, let us be thankful, and so worship God acceptably with reverence and awe, for our ’God is a consuming fire.’” This reverence and awe is exactly what the fear of God means for Christians. This is the motivating factor for us to surrender to God.
Proverbs 1:7 declares, “The fear of the LORD is the beginning of knowledge.” Until we understand who God is and develop a reverential fear of Him, we cannot have true wisdom. True wisdom comes only from understanding who God is and that He is holy, just, and righteous. Deuteronomy 10:12, 20-21 states “And now, O Israel, what does the LORD your God ask of you but to fear the LORD your God, to walk in all his ways, to love him, to serve the LORD your God with all your heart and with all your soul. Fear the LORD your God and serve him. Hold fast to him and take your oaths in his name. He is your praise; he is your God, who performed for you those great and awesome wonders you saw with your own eyes.” The fear of God is the basis for our walking in His ways, serving Him, and, yes, loving Him.
Some redefine the fear of God for believers to “respecting” Him. While respect is definitely included in the concept of fearing God, there is more to it than that. A biblical fear of God, for the believer, includes understanding how much God hates sin and fearing His judgment on sin—even in the life of a believer. Hebrews 12:5-11 describes God’s discipline of the believer. While it is done in love as in Hebrews 12:6, it is still a fearful thing. As children, the fear of discipline from our parents no doubt prevented some of our actions being mistakes. The same should be true in our relationship with God. We should fear His discipline, and therefore seek to live our lives in such a way that pleases Him.
Believers shouldn't be scared of God because We have no reason to be scared of Him.
We have His promise that nothing can separate us from His love -Romans 8:38-39. We have His promise that He will never leave us or forsake us as in Hebrews 13:5. Fearing God means having such a reverence for Him that it has a great impact on the way we live our lives. The fear of God is respecting Him, obeying Him, submitting to His ways so that it saves us pain later, and worshipping Him in awe.

Fear is never a good thing and won't control us unless we let it.
I hope this Helps you understand a little bit better, Let me leave you with two last Quotes.

"Avoiding danger is no safer in the long run than outright exposure. The fearful are caught as often as the bold." -Helen Keller

"A life lived in fear is a life half lived." -Spanish proverb

Diamonds and Faith

I wrote this a while back in my Facebook notes but I thought I would put it up on my blog too because I liked it.

Do you know how Diamonds are made?
Diamonds are made only one way, they start out as a ugly lump of coal, then with enough time and pressure the ugliness falls away to show the diamond in the ruff then a jeweler comes along and cuts out all the unsightly bits and when it's done it shines brighter than any other, such is that of Life and Faith.
People ask how God can make good people suffer but I don't see it as suffering so much as being shaped to be a brighter Gem, we pretend to want to change or even want to change things about us that might appear unsightly to the world.
It's something painful which we tend to forget, our lives start out with a lot of sin much like coal then we go through pressures of life and some depending on how big of diamond they will become, it will take a bit longer or more pressure to break through to the diamond inside.
When we go through getting rid of a lot of the sin in our lives there's still all the rough bits that need to be worked out so that's where our Jeweler comes in.
God comes along and starts striping away the rough parts until we're polished and brighter than not only what we were before but can show others what good can come out of what seemed to be bad situations.
Once a diamond is done it's one of the toughest substances in the world and that is what we strive to become and once that happens we can go through anything and affect life rather than us being affected by it.

Let me leave you with this Quote...

“The soul is placed in the body like a rough diamond, and must be polished, or the luster of it will never appear" - Daniel Defoe.

Trying to Kill my flesh

Well I really didn't know what I wanted to post this on so I'll write until I find something.
It's often weird to me, I write and more often than not I wind up writing some lesson about God that I had no intention of writing in the first place but I guess you can't really help but write what's inside you.
In blogs or writing period people's inner self naturally comes through the words on the page and despite meaning this blog to be about my life I somehow always come back around to God.
I realized something not long ago which is something I wished I would have learned a long time ago.
I was told before years ago and through my life that I had a critical spirit and of course with me being as stubborn as I am took offence to it because I didn't like anyone telling me who to be.
The one thing I didn't see was that they weren't telling me who to be, they were trying to help me change the negative things that were doing harm in my life.
It took my own search of Who I am/was to see what I needed to change in myself, I've always had a heart after God, this isn't to say I didn't look at other religions but my search led me straight back to the true God again.
God showed me many things in my life, amazing things that were beyond the physical world.
My journey and search for God's goal for my life has been interesting to say the least but now I have a very good idea of what God has planned for me and I am very excited about it.
Recently I had a debate or argument over point of view with an old and dear friend of mine and it really wasn't until recently that I really realized how useless the flesh side of me was until then.
Despite My knowing and being confirmed by others I realized that no matter what I do or say or how much proof I have I cannot change anyone.
This is beyond my friend, this goes to other places also, online forums and real life as well.
It seems people will always want to believe what they want to believe and there is nothing I can do about it, it has to be God who does it because if it were me there are plenty of people I want to smack and shake them.
I can't live in that old self anymore, there is no room for my flesh and God at the same time.
It is a very hard thing indeed to die to your flesh, in fact I don't think people realize that they're living in the flesh or realize that they can't have both sitting there.
It's like having a small closet packed with clothes and then trying to have a winter jacket in there too, it's not going to work very well.
in the past I have had a critical spirit and I see now that it does me no good, it just brings too much negativity over something I can't control.
I guess I saw that maybe I didn't trust God as much as I thought I did because if I did trust Him I wouldn't have to force anything or get upset if someone doesn't understand what I'm saying, even saying I'm wrong when I know I'm not.
These are things I cannot control, I can't control people and I think once I came to that realization that I should trust God enough to show my words as truth.
In the end there are far too many people to waste my time trying to argue with them when it's out of my control and nothing I do will change them, it has to be God, He can do the work.
That doesn't mean I'll stop talking to people what's right and wrong or what the Bible says, it just means I'll stop trying so hard it frustrates and makes me want to scream.
I will try to stay true to that and try to work hard on getting rid of that critical spirit and if anyone can help me it's God.
Keeping it in check that it won't creep up on me will be hard but I know it's something I need to do in the end because I want a soft pliable heart and moldable to what God wants to use me for.
When that happens I believe I'll be able to talk to people better and God will be able to use me in the way He intended to use me.

The reality of God's forgiveness and Grace

Forgiveness, Everyone likes to be forgiven whether it be from a hurt friend for something that happened or God's forgiveness for our sins.
God has set a standard for everyone to live by which is to not sin and since that is impossible, God sent His Son Jesus to die for our sins as a payment so we could be forgiven for our crimes against God.
We all have sins we deal with but culture seems to have a liberal understanding of this with all sorts of Ideas outside of the Bible what God says is right in wrong.
They make excuses like "I'm a good person" in an attempt to justify their behavior in continuing their life in sin.
Then there's the other type of person who dismiss' God altogether saying that there is no such thing as sin, no right or wrong and that sin is subjective.
These notions are false, much like the Idea that there is more than one way to get to heaven.
Jesus said in John 14:6 "I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me."
People think that by forming their ideas of God in their image that He'll be ok with how they live their lives even if it clearly goes against what God has said.
I've heard some people say "Well My god wouldn't send anyone to hell." but that's just it, their god wouldn't but clearly God said He would.

Matthew 13:42: "And shall cast them into a furnace of fire: there shall be wailing and gnashing of teeth."

Matt 25:41: "Then shall he say also unto them on the left hand, Depart from me, ye cursed, into everlasting fire, prepared for the devil and his angels." This passage relates to Jesus' judgment of all the world.

Mark 9:43-48: And if thy hand offend thee, cut it off: it is better for thee to enter into life maimed, than having two hands to go into hell, into the fire that never shall be quenched." The reference to fire is repeated three more times in the passage for emphasis.

Luke 16:24: "And he cried and said, Father Abraham, have mercy on me, and send Lazarus, that he may dip the tip of his finger in water, and cool my tongue; for I am tormented in this flame." This is a plea described as coming from an inhabitant of Hell.

As a sign in Georgia puts it "Just because you don't believe in Hell don't mean you ain't goin' there."

In making God ok with whatever they want they become idolaters no different than Pagans who worship the earth or other things God created.
People have a tendency to like the title of Christian but they are so in name only, the sad fact is most don't see a reason to go to church so they don't go except observing for holiday services.
Their reasoning behind it is that there are too many Hypocrites or they don't like anyone telling them how to live their lives.
That is very spiritually immature and shows they have no interest in God and His ways or even getting close to God because if they won't listen to those God has put up to help us understand His word better.
This is not to say that all pastors are right in their theology or that there aren't Hypocrites in the church but people fail to realize a few things.

1. Pastors with wrong Theology.
This is why we need to read the Bible making sure that we know when something doesn't line up with scripture and know if someone is correct or not.
Those who are correct show us a point of view that we couldn't see and those who aren't will be exposed by those who know what the Bible states.

2. Hypocrites.
These people are the ones who are Christian in title but do not study God's word so they go out and act like the rest of the world and then go to church asking for forgiveness but never trying to change.
What people SHOULD be asking themselves why they can't be the person to be an example for others.
You might be interested to know that Matthew 7:22-23 states "Many will say to me on that day, 'Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your name, and in your name drive out demons and perform many miracles?' Then I will tell them plainly, 'I never knew you. Away from me, you evildoers!'"
Also Matthew 7:16 says "By their fruit you will recognize them. Do people pick grapes from thornbushes, or figs from thistles?"
These two Verses show that you will be able to tell who are real christians by plastic ones and that these people who claim to know God, He will tell them that He does not know them and that they are evil.
So as you can see the hypocrites will not go unpunished by God and their deeds will be seen because they're hearts will be open before Him.

There are reasons for Church, the first church started as home groups, breaking bread with each other and what some fail to see is that we are there to help strengthen each other in faith.
The people are the church not some building but the Idea of church no matter how big or small is based on the people being with each other.
It's easy to get lost in a big church but this is where you must pray for what church God wants you at and a church that lines up with the Bible says.

In Proverbs 27:17 it says "As iron sharpens iron; so a man sharpens the countenance of his friend."

Matthew 18:20 states "For where two or three come together in my name, there am I with them."

These two verses alone go to show that you cannot be by yourself and expect to keep on track, you have no one to be accountable to and your actions to stay on the straight and narrow.
This is not to say you can't read alone but it's always good to have others to confirm correct teaching.

Now having set that right let me Get back to God's forgiveness...
The whole Idea of God's forgiveness relies on the fact that we need to have real repentance which means doing a 180 from our sins.
Everyone has trouble with falling into traps of their own, we're only human after all but at least making an effort to try and turn from it is what counts.
There are some who think they can continue sinning and just ask for forgiveness, God knows your heart and knows if you're honest with wanting forgiveness or if you're trying to fool God but they're only fooling themselves into thinking that their hearts aren't revealed before God.
God's forgiveness works on Repentance, if someone is not honestly repentant then God cannot forgive them.
There are those as I stated that don't believe anything is a sin and with that they cannot be forgiven.
This is not to say people cannot be forgiven on their deathbed, the point is that your ask for forgiveness is about being honestly being sorry for what you did.
Some think they can use this as an excuse to wait until the last minute but this is faulty thinking and here's why.

1.You don't know when you'll die, anything could happen and you could die at any moment without warning.

2. You loose time...
When you're a witness to others you gain your reward in heaven through both bringing others to Christ and also through what you did in your life.
Now this is NOT to say that works alone will do it by any means, James 2:20 says that faith without works is dead and Vise Versa but you also have to look at and consider Ephesians 2:8 which says salvation is by grace through faith.
We were meant to do good works but not rely on them totally for our salvation because it has already been worked out but is only part of who we are supposed to be in Christ.

3. God knows our hearts.
Waiting for the last second is a major problem due to the fact that God knows you've been putting it off, they try to postpone living for God so they can live their own way and then when life is over they think they can fool God into thinking that they were sorry for living in sin.
The problem is that they're hearts are exposed before God, He knows when they're trying to fool Him or if they are really being honest.

I hope this has shown you a great deal and helps you understand the truth behind the grace of God.

We must be honest, Repent accept Jesus is the only way, we cannot earn our way to heaven and should not wait for the last minute because we don't know when that will be.
After reading this please do yourself a favor, if you're trying to play games and trying to fool God into forgiveness while wanting to live your own way because you're only fooling yourself and it's both a shame and a waste.
Please read or reread as many times as needed, meditate on it and pray if you still don't understand.

Good Ol' Abe and the Redesigning of America.

I've been on a Abraham Lincoln quoting Binge of late and I suppose that's because He has so many great quotes.
It's no secret where my views are and going through the Journey of life and finding out what I believe and standing for it even if it means the world is standing against me is actually easier than it looks.
Yes people get mad at me for it but since when has it stopped me any other time in my life?
I am stubborn and anyone who knows me can tell you that fact, I have a loud voice and perhaps am a bit too opinionated on everything due to the fact that I don't believe in tact.
It's not that I don't believe it doesn't exist, I just think it's a waste of time, I'm what you call a truth freak.
To me you are either telling the truth or lying and that may sound like something extreme to most but at least with me you know exactly where I stand and what I believe, there is no mixed messages or two faced person.
Now I do get misunderstood when I speak sometimes but that's part of life, my own Mother misunderstood me up until a few years ago so that says a lot for my complexity.
To explain farther To me, even if you're not telling the whole story you're leaving things out which is again... Lying.
Being brutally Honest can be hard sometimes but I figure it's a lot like a band-aid, it hurts at first and people don't like it much but then the pain is over and you know exactly how to mend the wound underneath.
Beating around the bush does no good because the truth comes back around again and you're wasting time rather than getting things figured out which has never made much sense to me.
So you ask "what does this have to do with the Redesigning of America?" I'm glad I asked in your voice.
well see lately our country has been going through turmoil and with the tea party movement and being divided over the Healthcare bill, being taxed wayyyy too much and other things.
I'm not sure people are aware of this but just last year alone there was over 7,500 tax bill adjustments added.
So if you didn't think we were being taxed too bad think again, We have over 7,500 tax laws in our country?!
I don't know about you but I think that is way too much taxing going on and on top of that California just started taxing it's people with the healthcare tax with a $2.00 add on to their current taxes.
This means when it ripples to everywhere else we can say goodbye to cheap late night taco bell runs for 79, 89 and 99 cents and instead we'll be paying 2.79,2.89,2.99.
Goodbye to dollar menus and the popular dollar stores.
There was a civil war and I don't wish that again, I hope that we can do this like reasonable people and hope that liberals see how much damage they're doing.
I am going to the Tea party rally on Thursday and I will be helping out there along with Republicans and Democrats alike.
We are brothers and sisters in this nation, we are not Black, White or Mexican Americans but just... Americans!
we have a common interest and belief and knowledge of what is right and wrong with a moral sense of outrage for what our government is becoming.
I heard a while back of racial slurs being yelled at black democrats and even though I believe they were liberals trying to make us look bad if I hear any such thing I am making a citizens arrest and waiting for the police to take them to jail because I will not tolerate that behavior!
But if we cannot succeed in our banning together peacefully to get back our government I fear we will have another civil war on our hands, the people raising up to take back this country.
Both Democrat and republicans {Conservatives} coming together to overhaul this country like it was meant to be in the past as our forefathers wrote.

We have gone through so much and we are a young nation yet compared to others and yet we took the lead showing our liberties and compassion for others to come here to make their home.
We did it under God in a covenant with Him and He had vastly blessed this nation and I believe if it were not for those praying we would have been destroyed long ago.
In such a short time we have become one of the largest and richest {despite our debt} nation in the world.
We have gathered ourselves to go help nations in need, spend our money to get Haiti back, give our time and money when Katrina Hit, when Germany and Hitler were threatening a global take over we joined those who were brave enough to fight such a thing.
War is not pretty and is tough but if freedom is not worth fighting for than should we be happy to turn over and become slaves to a power that threatens our very way of life?
Peace comes at a price and the way that the bullies are kept in check are with the thought that they might get hit back.
People think that if everyone were to just give all their guns up it would be peaceful but that is not true, if the good and honorable ones lay down their arms who will keep the evil one's in check? do you think evil people will give up their guns or do you think they will take advantage of an unarmed nation?
The honorable people will do the honorable thing while dishonorable people will not, it is the nature of things and people do not change.
If a man goes into a coffee shop to rob it and sees 7 people in there armed what is the likely hood that the robber will actually go through with it knowing there's a great chance He will be shot?
As sad as it is the more people who are armed the safer people are, it's an odd fact and you can look up the stats yourself.
Crime rates of Robberies, sex crimes, car thefts and a whole host of things actually went down when the people were free to carry guns.
My main point is this, we need to get back to the greatness of what we were as a country under the intentions of noble people.
We need to stick up for what is right in spite of people hating us for it, doing the right thing isn't always easy but it's worth it in the end to keep our freedoms.
We as a nation need to come together and Redesign America back to our roots because our current state is horrendous.
Please read or reread this and contemplate on it or send it to friends if you liked it because I believe it is very important in this time right now we are in.

Let me leave you with yet another Abraham Lincoln quote...

"This country, with its institutions, belongs to the people who inhabit it. Whenever they shall grow weary of the existing government, they can exercise their constitutional right of amending it, or exercise their revolutionary right to overthrow it."

Setting the record straight

You know that feeling when you're driving around and a cop pulls out, starts following you and despite the fact that you're not even doing anything wrong you feel nervous?
I get that feeling around liberals...
I always see liberals meandering on spouting some kind of hate speech against republicans or against Conservatives.
Even when we aren't doing anything wrong they still make things up bringing up race issues that republicans or Conservatives never put out there or brought up in the first place.
It seems the only ones that really have race issues are Liberal Dems.
Let me tell you, Liberals are a bunch of liars and I have yet to meet one any different.
I saw a posted video I wish I could post here, a person I know had posted it and it was Bill Maher with Chris Rock on talking about how the Health care bill finally passed and how the republicans were fighting it and the reasons they must have been fighting it Making total lies up about the reasons because after all it couldn't possibly be that the bill was BAD.
Through the years the Liberals have gotten into the republican party making stupid choices, what we need is a conservative party and get rid of the Republican party all together setting up rules for joining the party.
In the words of John Lennon "You may say I'm a dreamer, but I'm not the only one."
Now I'm not one for Johnny boy because frankly He was all hopped up but I won't go into that.
Point is that I am not the only one Pissed off at what has been going on and some might say that it would be nearly impossible to dismantle the Republican party now and form a new group but with as much as they have been failing and as much as the American people are pissed off I hold Hope that it could happen.

Here would be the rules for Being a candidate in the Conservative party>>>
1.You must be a Christian.
2.You must Hold traditional family Values {Such as One man one woman}
3.You must Be AGAINST Abortion
4.Must be for cutting taxes.
5.Must cut wasteful spending.

These are just 5 of the things that would be a requirement to be part of the party and the list could go on forever but if you're voting record shows opposite of what is considered to be a conservative candidate then you will be rejected by those in the party and labeled in what group you should be in.
If you vote like a liberal then but say you are conservative then you will be kicked and then put in the liberal group category.
This is so there is no confusion, too many times liberals sneak into our group and then change their votes to fit more liberal ideals than what they were elected under.
Now to set the record straight I don't hate Democrats, I know plenty of them but they seem to have been misguided in what the democrat group actually believes.
If you asked some democrats if they were against abortion, for traditional marriage, cutting spending and other things they would say yes {SOME not all} this describes more conservatives than Democrats and yet some Democrats are convinced into thinking that it's the democrats with those values when they are not.
Who was in congress when Clinton was in office? CONSERVATIVES!
Why is that important and why did I bring that up?
Well WE kept the Budget down, it was Conservatives that kept things in check and kept wasteful spending down.
The values the most would describe what they like are Conservatives NOT Democrats, Liberalism is a rampant disease infesting our nation demanding that we change instead of the ones who are moving HERE.
Now I have no problem with people from other countries moving here as long as it's within the right way.
I'm not talking about changing their culture or anything like that because we are after all a melting pot, what I am talking about is that they should learn English instead of expecting everyone else to conform to them.
If you move to any other country in the world you are expected to learn that language, Do you know what the French would do if you demanded for them to change their whole national language to English? Give you a Language book and tell you to start learning French!
I have seen what liberalism does to this country, it's not because I was raised to be this way, I have my own thoughts and brain to think it.
I observe the world around me and I see what makes sense and what has no reasoning to it and liberalism has no logic to it, it's humanism at it's worst because it claims to care about people and it hides behind that but when you get to the true meat of Liberalism it doesn't care about the welfare of anyone.
They think giving people money without work is Helping but it sets people up for laziness and will never teach people how to be self-sufficient, standing on their own two feet, it keeps them weak living off other peoples hard earned money.
There is so much more that I could say on this but alas it's late and I should sleep so I'll leave you with this quote.

Republicans are for both the man and the dollar, but in case of conflict the man before the dollar.
Abraham Lincoln

Pandering to a ungrateful public

I'm sitting in a bookstore right now and I figure I might as well write my blog out instead of waiting until the wee hours of Monday morning.
I like having the obscure titles that really kind of make people somewhat think but then again I'm kind of odd that way.

I look at this world and see how many people clamor for the attention of others, they mimic others and try to get their 15 minutes of fame like everyone else thinking their self worth is in how successful they might be.
Might be is the key word because not everyone can be successful, at least not in the sense the world would like.
The more money you have, the more hot cars and biggest TV. they have abandoning any sense of purpose set in reality or knowing what real success is.
Not to say that people can't achieve their dreams, they can but what I'm talking about is the fact that they get so involved and consumed with other peoples dreams that they forget to follow their own.
I suppose that's why people get so caught up in celebrity gossip that they can't pull their eyes away to look at their own path.
Besides that everyone likes to know that their hero is only human too, it's only human nature to want to tear others down and watch in giddy glee as they go down in flames.
People want a scapegoat to blame their troubles on or at the very least feel better about their troubles by looking at others trouble.
It's a twisted need to knock society's idols off their pedestal and bring them back to earth.
That's exactly what they are, an Idol and they want to destroy God but since that will never happen they are in constant flux of destroying their old god and building a new one when the old one fails like the last one.
It's like they have the memory of a goldfish in that they seem to be constantly surprised that their idols have failed them, what made them think that this one was going to be any different?
There are people who think that becoming famous makes people turn bad and that but don't you think they would still be who they are despite being rich and famous?
Drug addicted Celebs would still be drug addicted and the cheaters would still cheat, the only difference is that they are known and so people tend to watch what they're doing so it's far more noticeable.
How many people talk about a non-famous coke addict or cheater to a total stranger on the bus or in line at the store?
There are always going to be people who gossip and people who listen even though it does more damage than anything else.
We shouldn't be talk about these people as if their lives were ruined by the spotlight, we shouldn't be treating them any different than any other person on the street.
When we see what's happening in these people's lives we need to remember to pray for these people.
Outside Celebrity infatuation we have local people who seem to clamor to popular people in hopes that it'll be associated in a good way.
People seem to have this misnomer that what other's think is the most important thing in the world when it's not.
It's a fine line between adapting yourself around others and changing who you are as a person to suit what other people want to see. {See my last blog entry.}
If you pander to those who want to change you as a whole you will always be changing every 5 minutes because I guarantee what one person likes another person won't.
What's worse is that we as the human race always want to gain peoples approval when the other people won't be grateful.
Do you think anyone will thank you for being what they want you to be? Changing yourself? agreeing with them completely? No of course they won't so why be anything that you're not.
Now you may say "Yeah but they'll like me" and that may be so for a short while, it's hollow and meaningless, they care about an image not the person.
You could be replaced easy enough by anyone else who appeared the same way, you become plastic and the moment you show through others might get nervous of that.
After all we don't want anything original would we? {can you hear the sarcasm?}
You don't want fake friends that will abandon you in troubles, you want people who like you for everything you are, with all your quirks and oddities.
Popularity is temporal and fleeting thing because in each stage of life our status gets reset.
In grade school we are one person and then move onto Jr. High and it's a whole new beginning, new people come along and then when High school comes it's reset again, in college it again resets and in our work, when we move and every other parts of life we move to.
It doesn't matter what others think, what matters is what God thinks of us and He loves us and thinks we're wonderful even with all our quirks and Oddities and even our faults He loves us.
No matter how hard you try you can't keep up being a fake person for long and if you did manage to do it, it won't be much of a life.
In the end remember that What matters is God, what He thinks of you and that you're on the right path you need to be on because if you take your eyes off the road your on to look at others you'll wind up in the ditch or far off from where you're supposed to be which is far worse to me.
I was never popular as a kid, I didn't find acceptance in myself until my 20's and I'm still finding out about myself.
I was concerned about a lot of people getting married while myself being single but I realized something, I'm not supposed to be married right now, there are things I need to take care of before that is handed to me.
I'm sure I'll talk about dealing with being single in one of my next blogs soon.

Let me leave you with this quote...

"You can please some of the people some of the time, all of the people some of the time, some of the people all of the time but you can never please all of the people all of the time." - Abe Lincoln

Realizing who we are.

There comes a point in everyone's lives that they realize what type of person they are or asks "who am I really?"
I am a night owl as most would say, I stay up late scuttling around and wake up much later than most in the depths of the night.
As you can see by the post date it's around 1 am Sunday, I go to church and by all rights should be in bed sleeping but I'm not, it's kind of a waste of time.
We all need sleep, that's not what I'm really referring to, which is partly why I often times get misunderstood in what I'm talking about to people.
I'm not saying the sleep is a waste of time, Sleep is what the body uses to recover from all the energy you used during the day.
What I should in all honestly say is it's time lost, that time between night and morning when we all dream whether we remember it or not.
Our brain is constantly in motion and thinking even when our consciousness is shut down.
How amazing is it that God made us to keep working even when our body isn't?
It's doing maintenance and such, letting our often times locked imagination free.
we grow and even burns fat while we sleep {Albeit a very small amount.}
Sleep is amazing and fun on a lazy weekend in midday, lay and stretch out in the warm sun and drift to sleep.
Beyond being a night owl I am many things and I've gotten to the point of knowing who I am in both myself and who God has made me to be and I'm still being shaped every day to be a better version of myself.
There are things about me that I see that need changing, I know for a fact that I want to be more uplifting as a person instead of so critical.
It's often times hard to make those changes let alone see it in ourselves to know we should change it and often times when others point things out the first thing we jump into is denial.
We often refuse to admit there is anything wrong with us and I'm as guilty of that as anyone.
I've been learning what I need to change in my life to be a better me, changing bits of who we are isn't a bad thing when the bits are hurting our relationship with other people.
I'm a loud person, ask anyone I know, I have no indoor voice and I totally loose track of the volume of my voice without even realizing it sometimes.
It's kind of like TV. in the way that when your program is on the volume is lower but when the commercial comes on the volume boosts by 50% if not more.
I realize that if I want to interact with people I need to adjust to their level, it's not that I'm totally changing who I am as a person, Just finding a point where people can be around me.
when I get excited I get hyper and loud and for the most part I've really toned it down when I'm around certain people so it doesn't scare them so much anymore.
I know I used to ask "why can't people just accept me for me?" and I've begun to understand that not everyone can handle to full fledged YOU, you.
I've learned that you can still be who you are even if it is a watered down version of yourself.
Some of us don't like to do that but hey that's life, some people aren't used to certain types.
The rowdy and loud, extreme and outgoing, the life of the party type that makes a scene in front of everyone and doesn't care, heck the person might get a kick out of seeing the reactions from what they do.
David danced naked before God! :D
When I am in Full ME mode I am out there and outgoing, loud and the type of person that will pretty much do anything if I really want to simply because I want to live.
I'm not saying I'm going to do something foolish like do something on a dare because what good is being you if you're going to bow to what others want you to do?
I'm a blunt person and I'll tell you flat out what is right, wrong and what I think.
There is no mixed messages with me, If I tell you something I'm not going to go through the trouble of lying to you.
Yes it causes me trouble from time to time because frankly I think "tact" is a worthless and cowardly act from people trying to beat around the bush instead of telling the truth.
If it happens to hurt someone then it's like taking a needle shot, it stings for a bit but then the pain goes away and you go back to a normal life after words.
Lately I've been trying to be more silent and it's hard to tame the tongue let me tell you but that's a whole other story all together.
In all let me tell you this...
while it may not be easy to change, it's worth it in the end to make an attempt, not changing who you are, God made you to be who you are and He thinks you are wonderful but trying to shed those things that take away your value as a person.
Things like Anger and hate, spite, lust, envy, malice, Greed and gossip.
It's like someone spent millions of dollars building a house and find they have bad wiring so the lights flicker and such, they aren't going to sit by and do nothing, they call someone to get it fixed so the house works properly.
It works the same way with us, we are the ones that God has invested in, He sees our faults in the wiring and wants to fix that, He doesn't want to tare down the whole house, He likes the design and wants to keep it.
What He want's to do is come in and make those minor changes on the inside so we work better as a dwelling place.
There is another side to the coin, sometimes people want to be someone else because they don't like who they are because they see too much damaged goods.
Certain things happen in our lives, good and bad that shape who we are as a person and I believe everything happens for a reason, it shapes us and makes us more patient, makes us relate to others better.
I can tell you a person that has gone through more pain will be able to relate to people better than those who haven't.
It's our story and testimony to each other, our connection to the world through Christ.
What good is it to live a life where you never actually lived?
Some may get that and others may not get it but I'm sure if you contemplate on it, you might understand if you didn't right away.
In ending I want to tell you this, Be who you are, Love who you are, change things that hold you back and never want or compare yourself to others except Christ.

Let me leave you with these quotes...

"Wanting to be someone else is a waste of the person you are."

"Always be a first rate Version of yourself instead of a second rate version of someone else."

Extremism in this world.

I read a blog statement not long ago saying they can't Imagine loving or hating to extremes or making blanket statements about any one group so here is my answer to them.

I think it's funny that some say this world is full of extremes when it's not as extreme as one might think.
They might call Terrorists "extremists" but this is rare from how normal people live their lives.
If everyone were as extreme as you say then the word extreme would no longer apply since it would then be considered "normal".
At one point showing a bit of leg was extreme in the past but now extreme is when two women poo in a cup and then throw up in each others mouths!
Now showing leg is nothing let alone called extreme by any spark of the Imagination.
As far as "religion" goes According to God {The Christian one} we are to love Him with all our hearts soul and mind... If that isn't enough He told us that we should be either HOT or cold for Him we cannot be luke warm or He will spit us out of His mouth.
THAT is extreme by all means, For Jesus to go up on the cross and take punishment for something He didn't do and DIE for it. THAT is extreme.
Most people live apathetic lives and that is where they wind up... In spiritual apathy.
I can't stand certain types of groups {Not races} Such as Dems because they have all shown themselves to be the same, I have yet to find one that has proven me wrong.
If I found one that were to show themselves different then I would gladly say there is one person different than the rest.
Same with a few other groups that have shown they are no different than the moronic mass' they belong to.
For Example, you cannot be liberal and a good Christian, you cannot be gay and a good Christian, you cannot be an adulterer and a good Christian.
You might see it as extreme but I call it Moral standing.
These people who say we need to be tolerant of others beliefs while not being tolerant of my beliefs.
These people with "Coexist" Bumper stickers who don't have a firm enough belief in anything that they can't understand why conflicting religions can't get along.
It's hard to get along with someone who is trying to kill you if you don't convert to what they believe so pardon me for my "blanket statements" but I will take that over the foolishness you want me to buy into.

Ignorance is not bliss and anyone who says different is a liar.

They say ignorance is bliss but frankly I say that's a lie.
Just because your blissfully unaware of what's coming doesn't mean it won't get you, sure you'll be happy not knowing until you die from not knowing it was coming.
Ok, I'm going to sound like a total Nerd here and I really don't care because I am a bit of one and that's fine.
I know superman is a fictional character but I'm still going to use this analogy because it's the first thing that came to mind and it works for what I need it to.
Had Jor-El been "blissfully" unaware the the planet was collapsing He never would have sent His son to earth thereby altering the course of fictional human events.
Lex Luther would remain high and mighty and maybe even take over the world and so on.
Another point I offer is the fact that if you don't know a Nuclear bomb were to go off or a comet were to hit the earth anything you could have or would have done is thereby altered.
If you become aware think of all the good things you could wind up doing?
Being unaware just simply means you'll be happy enough until you die but other than that it remains useless to you.
The saying "Ignorance is bliss" conflicts with "Knowledge is power." and I think it's that way with everyone.
I think {This is only my opinion} that you are either a person that doesn't want to know staying totally oblivious to your surroundings or the type of person that is the other way and stay aware of what is going on.
Now there is a trade off in both cases, on one hand you have someone who is blissfully unaware their death is coming, live normally and die.
on the other hand there are different fingers... :)
Take the same person but lets make them aware that they'll die, they'll be a few types of people.
One, they will be stressed all day and look over their shoulder and so on making sure everything is safe taking every precaution as to ensure their survival.
Two, if they know that it's a person they might go to the police to make sure that the person doesn't do them harm.
Or three, they might put their affairs in order eat a fine meal and make sure everything is taken care of including their family.
You might say well they might know but now their stressed what good is your last day if you spend it stressed?
The point is that knowing they're going to die gives them the power to live differently than they might have had they not known and not to make them less stressed.
Are you the type of person who wants power or do you want to be helpless to the shifts of life?
There are the types of person that know things and still plead ignorance in not wanting to believe what someone tells them which despite popular belief is not ignorance at all.
Once you have the knowledge of something it's on your head whether or not you put it into use or believed it.
Let's say someone told you that Murder was wrong, Now it's not much of a mystery to know that it is but let's say that you had never heard this before.
So let's take this a step farther for a second, Now let's say you went and decided that you didn't believe the person, as a matter of fact it sounds down right silly to you.
A person comes across your path and does something to upset you enough for you to murder them, maybe it was just a whim and it seemed fun.
In any case they gather witness' and evidence, you are now arrested and thrown in jail, a little time goes by and you appear before a Judge.
He tells you they have all the evidence and witness' and you have broken the law, what do you have to say for yourself?
You proudly stand before the Judge and say "I didn't think it was wrong your Honor."
The Judge says "Didn't anyone teach you it was wrong, did no one tell you it was wrong?"
To which you reply "A man once told me it was wrong but I didn't believe Him, Why should I believe what one man says?"
"It's in the law, didn't you read it?"
"Yes but it seemed like a bunch of silly rules, Besides why should I believe a book, It might work for some people but it's not right for me."
He looks at you in shock as He says "Because it's the law."
The Judge shakes His head and sentences you to life in prison and as they start taking you away you plead and beg that you didn't know and for Him to please reconsider because you didn't know.
Just because you chose not to believe does not make you any less guilty of the crime you have committed.
It is the same way with the spiritual world, Many tell others what is right and wrong and give them the law book that can save them from a life time of Misery but some don't accept it or think they can fain ignorance when it's done.
Just because you choose to not believe it doesn't make you ignorant and doesn't make you any less guilty of the crime committed.
It says that anyone who has hated in their heart is a murder, anyone who has lusted is a adulterer and so on.
We're all guilty but the differences between some and others are our lawyers, for some Jesus is our Lawyer and there are others who think they can represent their case before God.
What most don't know is that they will never be able to pay their fine for the crimes they've committed and that Jesus already paid the fine for all His clients ahead of time.
The fine was costly but He did it out of love for His friend, which is why He has given it as a gift to us.
You may dig your head in the sand now and think you can explain later but we all must be accountable for our actions in the end.

I'll leave you with a Quote from the Movie Kingdom of Heaven which I have found inspiring.

Remember your soul is in your keeping alone. Even though those who presume to play you be kings or men of power. When you stand before God, you cannot say "but I was told by others to do thus" or that "virtue was not convenient at the time." This will not suffice.

I guess I do

So I guess if I had a blog it would go like this...

Exactly like this and this might be something you might see me write.

This strange little life given to me by God and frankly even if you don't believe in God and doubt, it really doesn't matter because in the end we shall see who was right and who was wrong.

I'm not here to please anyone, this blog is for me and those who might become addicted reading my thoughts online.

I'm Here to put thoughts down and if I make you angry because of something I said then that's on you for reading it.

If you come back and I keep making you angry that's still on you for coming back again and I might keep writing, or I might quit because I either got board with this, it became too much work or I totally forgot I was doing this all together.

I'm often times misunderstood by many and often times too loud or bold, Brash, Imaginative, Creative and too often frank about what I believe about everything and I tend to hurt the people around me without realizing it sometimes.

I tell lots of puns and have a Dry sense of humor.

I'm quirky and I never lie.

I see things in black and white/ Right or wrong... there is no room for a grey area in life and I don't see things that way.

I believe in God,Devil Heaven,Hell.

I'm single and plenty of people around me are getting Married, Married or Married and Prego and I sometimes wonder where my pregnant wife is. lol

I had a Dream about my wife from God and the reason I believe it was from God was because I still remembered still today and most wouldn't think much of it...

I never remember any of my dreams for one and second I heard Her name and Third and most importantly is the fact that out of all the names I could have heard I don't know anyone by the name that was said and I would have never guessed I would be with a person with that name.

I'm waiting for now and it's all cool that I can wait, Now's not really the right time anyway with my life the way it is.

I have a great Job, one I actually don't mind going to, one I like doing and finally something I love to do that I get paid for.

Besides work I write, Not just this blog but also other things, Like poetry and I'm in the middle of a Novel at the moment which I'm confident will be Great.

I'm not quite sure what this Blog will be yet but I guess we'll find out because if I had a Blog it would go like this...